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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

Beautifully written, Sarah. I'm so sorry for your loss.

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thank you so much madeline 💌💌

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

love you always ❤️

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i love you so much

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

This is beautiful, Sarah ❤️‍🩹 I’m so sorry for your loss. From one eldest daughter who’s grieved a lot to another, I promise it gets better

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thank you so much 💌💘

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so so beautiful 🤍 i heavily relate to the part about death feeling like a foreign concept, it always felt so distant from my life until last year with the deaths of 2 loved ones in the same year. learning how to navigate grief is such a tough lesson, i’m sending you sm love xx

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aw leah thank you so much for your support, i adore you 💌

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

This is a beautiful tribute to your grandfather. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love ❤️

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thank you so much 🤍🤍

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beautifully written. sending love as always <3

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i love you the most

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

Sarah.

I always keep you in my thoughts and prayers, even more now. In your writing, you show us how beautiful your heart is, even when you’re dealing with such a hard loss. You transcend words, somehow.

Besides being the sweetest person i know, you’re also the strongest. I love you. You know that. But you do not even know how much i love you even more each day. May your grandpa rest in peace. I’m sure he’s proud of you. 💌

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i have so much love for you 💘 you’re the most incredible person and i’m so thankful to have you in my life

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🥹🍀💜💌

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

i love you so much sarah. the floodgates instantly opened at the beginning of this piece when you talked about your childhood dog passing because i still feel a void in my heart from when my boy einstein passed in may last year. death had just been but a concept to me until then, too.

this piece was so beautifully written as always. i’m sending you and your family all the love in the world 🤍

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faith i love you endlessly. i’m so sorry about your dog, that feeling stays with you for so long. thank you so much for reading and supporting me and being an incredible friend 💘💘💘💘

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so beautifully written 🥹 Im so sorry for your loss and sending you love 🤍

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thank you so much 💌💌

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

sweet sarah, this is so so heartbreakingly beautifully written. thank you so much for sharing this and for conveying eldest daughter sentiments so eloquently. may your pop rest in peace; i am keeping you and your family in my thoughts 🩷

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elle i appreciate you and love you so much 💌 thank you so much 💘

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

i’m so sorry sarah, sending you love and peace (from one grieving eldest daughter to another)🧡

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thank you so much rachel 💌 sending that love right back to you

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

thank you for being the eldest daughter ❤️‍🩹

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thanks for being the youngest daughter

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Sep 8Liked by sarah cucchiara

this is so beautifully written, Sarah ❤️ thank you for sharing some memories of your grandfather with us, sending love x

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thank you so much eve 💌 love you tons

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My Nan passed away just this weekend. It was a complicated end and relationship for sure. You’re not weird for feelings a little bit later and keeping it together for your family. I too am an eldest sibling and daughter. I am so sorry for your loss and please find comfort in knowing you’re not alone, I too am going through this with you. Love from a stranger on the other side of the world x

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this resonated so much with me. my grandpa recently passed away as well, and sometimes i feel a twinge of guilt for not crying more. or sometimes i think the grief should feel heavier. grief is odd!! thank you for sharing this and for writing with such a vulnerable heart.

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I'm so sorry for your loss, losing a family member is so incredible difficult, and often death is so startlingly weird and admin-heavy it takes us out of the grief. I really feel for you. I'm an eldest daughter too, and my grandmother died this august. I think writing helps, especially as eldest daughters, we're often better at processing through words that out loud. I hope you've been able to find some comfort and space to grieve ❤️

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